Rac's Star

About the title: Rac - that would be me. A nickname I coined myself when I was still in grade school. It's actually my initials backwards. Yeah yeah, CAR would be my initials. Not as cool as RAC don't you think? Eh? And yes, I think Rac is C oo L. <--- That's an emoticon btw. *insert sheepish grin*

Years later, I met Mac - now my husband, and together, we are... tentenen tenenenentenen..... Mac & Rac. Tadah! 

What about the star? Now that's going to be my story. ;) It's about a star who heard me pray. It's about my star. Rac's star!

So once upon a time, before I became Mrs. Lucky, there was this one night, a bit emotional, I went out in our yard, grabbed a chair and watched the sky. Why was I being emotional? Because I was thinking about the coming days. I was contemplating about the upcoming big event in my life. I was thinking and thinking if I was ready. If it was my destiny. If the man I'm marrying is my destiny. I was actually having cold feet. Why was I being doubtful? Because my husband - then boyfriend, and I didn't exactly have the best of relationships. We had a lot of petty quarrels, really big fights, broke up several times, broke each other's heart several times. And we're going to marry each other? Was it the right decision? Would it end the petty quarrels, the big fights? Does that mean we're not going to break each other's heart anymore? What if it still didn't work out? What if we won't be happy with each other? What if he was bound to meet another and I was bound to meet another too? I had too many what if's running in my mind. I had too many negative thoughts that I was breaking my own heart. And for what? For being scared? For being unsure? For being doubtful? My head was clouded with confusion and uncertainty that I decided to clear my mind. And so I watched the sky, 

As I looked up the dark sky, I began to pray. I prayed for enlightenment. I prayed for guidance. And while I'm at it, I prayed the heavens for a sign. Not just any sign. I asked for a very specific one - a shooting star that would mean Mac and I were really meant for each other. And there it was, after I ended my sentence with please, a star darting across the heavens, answering my prayer almost instantly. I swear, for a moment my jaw dropped! It was like a big YES was written in the sky and I couldn't believe my eyes... I was shocked really. Then the rush of inexplicable overwhelming feelings. Suddenly I believed. All my woes disappeared. And then I remembered why Mac and I wanted to marry in the first place. I remembered how no matter what happened in our past, we've always made it as we had the past few years. That despite the petty quarrels and big fights, we still can't live without each other. That despite the heartaches we caused each other, we still need each other to mend and heal. Because no matter how much we called it quits, we still can't move on and we still find our way back to each other. We finally knocked each other's head and cut the chase to seal the deal. That I am his, and he is mine. To annoy and love, now and forever.

Thanks to a shooting star that decided to fall just to answer my prayer. I didn't really need that. I just needed to remember. But thanks Rac's star! You're super! (Which makes you... a super star!)

I wish I could say this picture was taken that same night.
Click for larger view. ;)

I Think I Wanna Marry You... Again!

Before my husband and I tied the knots (on each other's neck...kidding!), I asked him why do people marry, when I meant to ask, why he wanted to marry me. Needless to say, I didn't get the answer I wanted to hear because I didn't ask the right question.  So I asked him again, after 2 years of being married. and here's what he said... ;)

12 reasons why I married you: 

1. I love you 
2. you bring out the new me 
3. you make life so easy
4. cant live without you 
5. "be the mom of my first baby" 
6. I already knew that you are going to be my wife the 1st time I saw you. 
7. you look like "Geneva Cruz" and you became my "thrasher baby," my "worst enemy," my best friend, my lover, my girlfriend, my teacher .ehem. 
8. you were 'easy to get' and I like it..hahaha.. but you have your own reason. soobrang bumilib ako sa about courtship na sinabe mo "hindi titigil ang courtship kahit magasawa na tau" 
9. 1st time ko nga agkaryo to ask for your number, gumawa ng way to get your number, to ask you out, and ask you to be my girlfriend kahit sooobrang nanginginig na ko and I need my investment back..lol 
10. I believe in shooting stars 
11. you believe in me 
12. you taught me how to love you again and again and again with no end. "I'll never go far away from you."

Sometimes we need to ask the right questions to get the right answers. So I finally got the answers I wanted, and more. 2 years late, but like what they say, "Better late than never."

Taken inside a calesa in Vigan.
03/06/09

Dear Husband,

You still owe me one engrandeng simpleng wedding of the year. ;)

L♥ve,

The mom of your first baby. And future second baby. AND all your babies. 

PS.

I'm still quite doubtful about number 3. ;)